SHUT THE FUCK UP, KANYE! AND ALL YOU OTHER BITCHES AS WELL!

Kanye, you stupid fuckin' overrated piece of shit no talent asshole! You have no fucking right interrupting ANYONE or disrespecting ANYONE on ANY stage in the world! First you insult Gretchen Wilson, then you interrupt Justice, and now Taylor! SHE'S 19 YEARS OLD, YOU SCUMBAG!

What makes me sick to my stomach is that he thinks that when he's invited to an award show and doesn't win, the show loses credibility. Oh, my God! ARE YOU F'N KIDDING ME!? I DON'T KNOW ANYONE THAT OWNS YOUR MUSIC! I SURE DON'T!

Your music sucks, you can't sing, and if your mama was alive, she'd smack you into next week with a date of return on NEVER!

GO TO HELL, KANYE! WE DON'T NEED YOU! DIE!

And that goes for all you little emo wanna be punk rock posers out there too!

i hate everyone except my friends and family...

you know, i work in the media. i work for the company that my friends deem the "enemy." that enemy is MTV. do i feel like a sellout? yeah, i do. i'm collecting a paycheck for bastardizing our youth, and the more i think about it, the more i hate it.

it's funny. with all the political shit that's been forcefed down our throats, this is what i deem todays world as:

1. the 2004 election. looking back on it, i begin to wonder where the fuck my head was. i look at it this way. bush or kerry...a turd or a douche. my only choices. fuck me, who do i pick? and why should i vote? the more i think about it, the more i feel like voting was pointless. look at it this way - bush's popularity was above the halfway margin. there was no way in hell kerry was gonna win, because during a time of war, nobody votes the present president out of power. in the history of the USA, it's never happened, and most likely never will. now let's say i voted kerry. i knew kerry was gonna win NY, because NY is a liberal state. but i knew he wasn't gonna win the electoral vote in general. now if i voted bush, he was not gonna win NY, but he'd win the electoral vote in general. GUESS WHAT! BOOYAKA - I WAS RIGHT! pay up, bitch!

now i hate liberal democrats because they're whole purpose seems to be rob from the rich to give to the classes that don't deserve shit. and i hate republicans in general because unlike democrats, they're all about catering to the rich. now where does that leave working-class, blue collar, lower middle class shmucks like me? IN THE FUCKING DIRT FACE FIRST! i don't have a political voice. and it seems like i never have.

2. a new movie's coming out called "The US Vs. John Lennon." in it, gore vidal makes a sickening quote that "lennon celebrated life, and nixon and bush were all about death." okay...this is coming from the same guy that called William F. Buckley, Jr (a respectful conservative political analyst) a "crypto-nazi." sure, THAT'S how you win arguments! you call the other guy a nazi. i love the way liberals also "we're open to suggestion," but when they hear the suggestion, they close the door. it's old business out the door, and in with new business, which is the same as the old business. IT'S SICKENING! these fucking idiotic hollywood political pundits that were smoking dope and fucking their brains out in the sixties. them with their fucking "war is not the answer." okay granted, THIS war is not the answer to anything, but then again, in life, STANDING THERE WHILE SOMEONE'S BUTTFUCKING YOUR FAMILY MEMBER AND TRYING TO EXPLAIN PEACE TO THEM ISN'T THE ANSWER EITHER, YOU FUCKING MORONS! FIGHT WHEN YOU HAVE TO FIGHT! TRUE PEACE COMES AFTER VICTORY! IT'S EITHER THEM OR ME! AND I'M NOT FUCKING LYING DOWN FOR ANYBODY! FUCK THAT!

here's a random thought. there are horrible diseases going out like AIDS, hepatitis, and other STDs. because of lack of education, there are kids being born with the disease. i call these unfortunate kids "children of a lesser god." i believe that money does not buy happiness. happiness comes from within. a lot of these 60s hippie protesters were kids that came from privileged homes that got burnt out on flower power, and started fucking like bunnies, giving unwed teen mothers out there kids out of wedlock, spreading disease through intercourse because they weren't responsible enough to rock a rubber...DO YOU SEE WHERE I'M GETTING AT!?

IRRESPONSIBILITY BREEDS THE DOWNFALL OF SOCIETY!

i'm not saying the sexual revolution wasn't needed when it was needed. but for god's sake, when you got lives on the line, and all you can do is shoot your load into every cherry opening their legs for you, and you don't even live up to your end of the fucking bargain...and your kids get hopped up on drugs...THIS WORLD IS FUCKED, man!

now we're living in a world of "Next," "Tiara Girls," and "My Super Sweet 16." and i feel like i'm a part of the downfall of humanity working for MTV, because we express that you should join in the decadent, godless, lifestyle deprived of morality, motivation, and perserverance. individuality is gone, and we're along for the ride. instead of books, we're seeing who the next big porn actress will be that jenna jameson's gonna find.

if i had a solution in the world, this is what i'd do:

1. take all the idiots, al-qaeda, career politicians, and decadent hollywood scum, put them in a building, and detonate the fucker. start all over again.
2. take their money, and redistribute it. give it to someone that wants to help themselves, and make a better life for their family and future family.
3. bring back the death penalty.
4. stop all the racist and sexist bullshit.
5. no more career politicians, and no more political parties - right is right, and wrong is wrong! LEARN TO DRAW THE FUCKING LINE!

i'm not saying we should force the 10 commandments down people's throats. but what's wrong with ideas to live by? what's wrong w/ the 1000 points of light? noble truths? honor thy father and mother?

expect more stream of consciousness stuff like this in the future. i dunno; tell me if i'm crazy or not.

I love you, Dimebag Darrell!

Right now, I just finished watching Pantera Behind the Music for the 5th fucking time. Everytime I watch it, I get more and more choked up. Today, I finally broke down and cried.

Pantera was for me, the fucking be all AND end all of heavy metal. They took it to the extreme, and they perfected it. No one will take their throne away from them in my opinion. As much as I love bands like Avenged Sevenfold, Trivium, and Bullet for My Valentine, Pantera took what bands like Zeppelin, Sabbath, Maiden, Priest, Metallica, Megadeth, Slayer, Anthrax, Testament and Manowar and PERFECTED IT! Beauty and ugliness, dark and light, aggression and passion, dynamics and depth - this is Pantera.

I remember when I was 12 years old, and I first heard Vulgar Display of Power. I thought it was better than anything I ever heard. The groove, the power, the musicianship - holy shit, Pantera were the total package. 4 Goddamn rednecks from Texas that would scare the shit out of your typically black and white corpse painted faggoty-assed black metal band. And when Far Beyond Driven came out, I bought it the Saturday before the Tuesday it came out, coz I had a friend of mine that owned a record store who'd get it that weekend. I was the first in line to buy it, and I absorbed it. It made me practice the guitar more than I ever had, coz I wanted to be as good as Dime. A week and a half later, FBD debuted at number 1 on the Billboard charts. NUMBER FUCKING ONE! FUCK GRUNGE, FUCK NU-METAL, FUCK EMO! PANTERA OWNS YOU ALL FOREVER!

When Dime was killed, I cried. I wasn't old enough to remember Randy Rhoads, Cliff Burton, Eric Carr, and Freddie Mercury when they were at their prime. But Dime's murder to me was like Lennon's death to the hippie and baby boomers. Fuck you, Nathan Gale - I'm glad you're dead.

Seeing Dimebag's father cry on BTM...reminded me how much I love my parents. I sometimes wish I'd pass on before them, because I can't stand the thought of burying them. But it'd break their heart to bury their sons, and I know this.

I wish that Vinnie, Rex, and Phil would come to terms and forgive and move on. The media has a way of fucking up people's relationships and personal lives.

In my heart, I feel like Dime's at a better place. I really wish I had that chance to jam with him. My first ever concert was Black Sabbath/Pantera/Deftones. To me, that will always be the greatest concert experience of my life.

RIP Dimebag Darrell; you are highly missed.

Amazing Grace, come sit on my face!

Where is Grace, that trifling witch!

So I'm at work right now, okay, and I have nothing to eat coz I ate my McDonald's Value Meal #2 before I started work. Just found out I'm getting a raise, and I'm now a Master Control Operator Level III, so I'm at the higher echelon of Operations at MTV. Yay.

Life in Bayville is sweet; going to my boy Tom's Cinco de Mayo party this weekend. Looking to get crunk (yes, this honky just said crunk).

Erin's just finished her first official year of Grad School, and the final 3 mixes for her CD will be done tomorrow. I'm so proud of her.

So I'm watching Spike TV tonight, and I'm watching "Ultimate Fighter, Season 3." Okay, I didn't realize this, but Ken Shamrock's a freakin' dolt! No wonder Tito Ortiz' whipped his @$$. The guy's got the personality of a dodo bird! HE starts with Ortiz, because he's jealous that his team's lost 4 people already, and Ortiz only lost one. Seriously, I gotta give it to Ortiz. He's a better coach, and people wanna say negative stuff about him. Let me say one thing - it ain't braggin' if you can do it, man.

TNA was on after that. Okay, these guys WRESTLE, people! Unlike WWE, TNA has WRESTLING! I cannot wait for ECW to return.

Hopefully gonna see Def Leppard and Journey this year. I'm excited about Ozzfest too. Can't go wrong w/ Unearth, Atreyu, and BLS on the second stage.

Found the greatest amp I ever played. It's called the Carvin Legacy. You can find it @ www.carvin.com/vai and drool at the beauty. It's affordable and sounds like $1,000,000.

Can't think of anything else to say, but once I have random thoughts, I will torture you all again. Peace and afro grease!

Yeah, so Isaac Hayes quits South Park, blah blah fuckin' blah!

So this douchebag decides to quit South Park because they lampooned Scientology. Guess what? EVERYBODY lampoons Scientology. So DO US THE FUCKIN' FAVOR, and QUIT THE WORLD! Take the Goddamn razor, and slit your wrists and bloodlet enough so that you can fill up the Grand Canyon. N0body needs you, you're religion's a joke, and Tom Cruise hasn't released a good movie since "Legend" for God's sake!

See, this is what grinds my gears. An idiot by the name of L. Ron Hubbard writes a book, and realizes, Hey, I can be a tax-deductable empire if I make my sci-fi world a religion. Since then, we've had idiots make religions out of the Jedi shit from "Star Wars" (which if you REALLY wanna get technical, is Taoism), and make a mockery out of what faith is supposed to be - AS THOUGH ORGANIZED RELIGION HASN'T ALREADY FUCKIN' DONE THAT!

"South Park" is probably one of my top 5 favorite shows ever (right up there with "Miami Vice"), and this is what Trey and Matt do best - they poke fun at the things that we as society hold as benevolent. IT'S ABOUT TIME SOMEBODY DID! So the moment they make that mockery outta Scientology, Isaac Hayes has a titty attack. WHAT A FUCKIN' HYPOCRITE! The schmuck went on XM Satellite Radio around the time the show aired and said it didn't bother him. Now it seems as Tom Cruise and the rest of the wack pack must have gotten to him. Great, first the guy insults Brooke Shields (I miss "Suddenly Susan"), then has the audacity to put the word "glib" in our daily vocabulary, and NOW THIS!

GET A FUCKIN' LIFE, YOU MORONS, AND STAY OUT OF OURS!

Anyways, moving right along. A lot's happened in the past couple of months. I've moved out of my parents' house and moved in with a good friend in a sick-ass sweet house in Long Island right by the beach. I'm loving it - it's so peaceful and our neighbors rock. Still with my lovely Erin after 2 years and 3.5 months. Went to a club last night in Levittown called Savannah's. Now I must admit - any club named after a deceased porno star is a great thing! KEEP THE SPIRIT ALIVE!

It's great living on my own - I love my family, but I swear to got, complacency depresses me. Now I can say I'm motivated and happy.

I just found out I'm gonna be an uncle for the second time. Very happy about that.

Going to Coldplay tonight at Nassau. Got skybox seats for Erin (her birthday was a couple of weeks ago).

Did Guitarmageddon at Carle Place. You can check out the video at www.myspace.com/kungfurascal and enjoy...ME!

Just heard 4 of the final mixes for Erin's CD. INCREDIBLE! 7 more to go!

Saw Children of Bodom and Chimaira last weekend. FUCKIN' METAL UP YOUR ASS, BABY!

Nothing much to say. Peace!

It's 4AM, I'm tired, and gosh, I hate Kanye West.

Yup, can't stand the foo. Why? Coz I don't believe anyone is God's gift to music...except me.

Anyways, just turned 25, and I'm now missing 3 birthday parties tonight. Sorry, but duty calls, and morons around the world need their helpful dosage of MTV2.

Had a great party at my girl's house. We took over the torch for my homeboy Tom (www.mrsparklet.blogspot.com), and I must say (with the exception of Charades and Jeopardy), it was awesome. Thanks to all my people who came out to celebrate my quarter of a century.

Just heard that the Deftones are touring with As I Lay Dying, Thrice, and quite possible Funeral For a Friend and Story of The Year. Well, if Trans-Siberian Orchestra doesn't pan out, then I need to be to at least this concert. I don't care if I never go to another Ozzfest again. I NEED DEFTONES!

Gonna be 2 years in December since Erin and I first united. I'm psyched as hell, but God bless her for putting up w/ my not being around every other weekend coz of work. Maybe it put a strain on things at one point, but it's not like I'm boinking behind her back. I could never do that to someone so wonderful and special. And I guess I wish I had an easier time telling her. Sometimes I've felt like I've opened up, but you know what they say about too much of something. I wish it was easier for me to show her how special she is. I really can't live without her. She's my best friend and soulmate, and there's nothing I wouldn't do for her. I feel bad that the job leaves her lonely on weekends sometimes, but I swear to God that I'm glad I don't tour anymore. The life of a musician is quite strange and lonely. Definitely not for me.

My point? There's no doubt that Erin's my source for living. I only wish that I could be there for her more often. I've been faithful and loyal; no regrets.

Erin, if you read this, I love you so much, sweetheart.

Peace out, homies.

www.fucksharon.com ...is this really necessary?

Okay, so as you all know, I love metal music. But even I gotta admit, metal's really falling by the wayside. It doesn't seem about the music anymore. This is really sad.

Why do I feel this way? Okay, check it out:

I went to Ozzfest this year w/ my buddy Tom. My 2 favorite bands of all time (Black Sabbath and Iron Maiden) were on it this year. No way in HELL was I gonna miss it. It woulda been the perfect end to a great vacation (I had gone to Ireland w/ my girlfriend Erin the week before).

So my buddies Tom, Taso, Ron, Mike, Addie, and I saw the following bands:

2nd Stage:
Mastadon - incredible
As I Lay Dying - monumental
Killswitch Engage - FABOO!
Rob Zombie - ...eh.

Main Stage: (I missed In Flames...FUCK!)
Black Label Society - monolithic
Shadows Fall - THE metal band of the new millenium
Mudvayne - dissapointing
Iron Maiden - FUCK YEAH!
Black Sabbath - OZZY! OZZY!

Now, from the get-go, you could tell Dickinson was jabbing at Ozzy w/ his "You'll never see us on MTV/reality TV/sucking corporate dick." diatribes. Seriously, whatever you might thing of Sharon, do NOT take it out on Ozzy. Granted, he's shot from all the chemicals he's intaken, but you cannot disrespect the man. In my opinion, the only three bands that ever mattered are 1. The Beatles, 2. Led Zeppelin, and 3. Black Sabbath. Whether or not he wrote those lyrics (people say it was Geezer who did it), do you think they would have worked if they were sung by another person? As great as Dio is, his voice is not right for the Ozzy-era Sabbath stuff (then again, as great as Dickinson is, his voice is a lil' off for the Di'Anno-era Maiden stuff).

Point is - Ozzy's voice was the voice of heavy metal when it came to Sabbath's music. You can NEVER take that away from him. So for Dickinson to shit on Ozzy during Ozzy's tour is FUBAR! But for Sharon to do what she did? Well...there's the part of me that can understand, but there's also the asshole in me that says she's a C U Next Tuesday.

My point here is this - Ozzfest is an established tour. If you're gonna be on it, you're one step away from being "establishment." It's a sad fact, but it's a fact - GET USED TO IT! EVERYTHING'S CORPORATE! The water you drink, the food you eat, the toilet paper you use to wipe your shit with, the stores you go to. EVERYONE WHO OWNS A BUSINESS PAYS FEES AND TAXES! THEY'RE CORPORATE! INDIE LABLES? THEY'RE FUCKIN' CORPORATE TOO!

You're only a sell-out when you disregared your own personal integrity to get ahead in life.

OZZY is not a sell-out.

Is Dickinson a sell-out by biting the hand that feeds him? Badmouthing Ozzfest while taking its cash? Kinda. If he did the tour for free, then I'd say otherwise. Is he taking the fans money though? Well, from what I head, Sharon was paying Maiden $185,000 per performance ($285,000 per headline performance) out of her own pocket.

WHAT THE FUCK IS DICKINSON COMPLAINING ABOOT!? I'LL NEVER SEE THAT MONEY IN MY LIFE! I'LL SELL OUT! SHARON, SIGN ME UP!